My Retiring Father
So, my father, after working for a very long time at the same company, is now at the point where he can finally say goodbye to the wretched place, and do the stuff that he wants to do.
The thing is though, the stuff he really enjoys doing, like fishing, most of those things involve the cottage, which belongs to my mother's parents. Since my parents separated almost 3 years ago, he has been very reluctant to go up there. I guess he just feels awkward about it all, and I don't really blame him, I don't know how I would feel in that situation.
The cottage is where I got to know my father, all those trips into town, early mornings out fishing. He taught me to drive up there because, as he put it, there isn't anything to hit. I learned so much about him up there, and that's where I got to spend the most time with him. I remember all the times we spent under the cottage, trying to get the old pump to work, and both of us cursing it. I will always remember his fishing pole leaning against the tree by the lake, ready for him to use it again the following morning.
I remember one night, there was a brutal thunderstorm, the three of us were all pretty little, and scared. We were sitting on the couch, all huddled up, and Dad got some Koolaid for us, to make us feel better. He had the jug in his hand, and just then, there was a strike of lightning, very close to us, and the thunder was instantaneous, and all of us jumped. Dad did too, and the koolaid spilled out, and for years after, there was a purple mark on the floor, all of us would laugh when we first got up there every summer, and say, "Hey, remember that storm..."
I remember the tape we made when it was raining outside, I remember the time the chipmunk got in the car because Dad left the window open. I remember long walks to the farmhouse. I remember catching frogs in the evening.
Most of all, I remember my dad as a permanent fixture there, that's where he relaxed, where he loved to be. He would say to me in the middle of January "I can't wait to open the cottage up this year, I need to get out of this city".
I hope, beyond hope, that he one day feels comfortable enough to go back with me. It's so hard to think of that place without him there. I'm really happy that Dad is finally getting to retire, he has earned it without a doubt, but I so wish he felt comfortable doing what it is he truly wants to do.
Dad, if you read this, I love you.
The thing is though, the stuff he really enjoys doing, like fishing, most of those things involve the cottage, which belongs to my mother's parents. Since my parents separated almost 3 years ago, he has been very reluctant to go up there. I guess he just feels awkward about it all, and I don't really blame him, I don't know how I would feel in that situation.
The cottage is where I got to know my father, all those trips into town, early mornings out fishing. He taught me to drive up there because, as he put it, there isn't anything to hit. I learned so much about him up there, and that's where I got to spend the most time with him. I remember all the times we spent under the cottage, trying to get the old pump to work, and both of us cursing it. I will always remember his fishing pole leaning against the tree by the lake, ready for him to use it again the following morning.
I remember one night, there was a brutal thunderstorm, the three of us were all pretty little, and scared. We were sitting on the couch, all huddled up, and Dad got some Koolaid for us, to make us feel better. He had the jug in his hand, and just then, there was a strike of lightning, very close to us, and the thunder was instantaneous, and all of us jumped. Dad did too, and the koolaid spilled out, and for years after, there was a purple mark on the floor, all of us would laugh when we first got up there every summer, and say, "Hey, remember that storm..."
I remember the tape we made when it was raining outside, I remember the time the chipmunk got in the car because Dad left the window open. I remember long walks to the farmhouse. I remember catching frogs in the evening.
Most of all, I remember my dad as a permanent fixture there, that's where he relaxed, where he loved to be. He would say to me in the middle of January "I can't wait to open the cottage up this year, I need to get out of this city".
I hope, beyond hope, that he one day feels comfortable enough to go back with me. It's so hard to think of that place without him there. I'm really happy that Dad is finally getting to retire, he has earned it without a doubt, but I so wish he felt comfortable doing what it is he truly wants to do.
Dad, if you read this, I love you.